Jaaavvveeey <3

Hiya <3

So, along with a friend of mine, I decided to just take my rants and rambles here. Because I don't want to flood people's inboxes with my pathetic whining about not getting enough attention, which I'm sure I'll do soon. Now maybe lol.

I feel kinda.. lonely right now. I don't know why. I guess it's because no one is online currently and it's 5 am. I haven't slept yet so I'm a bit moody. But I'm not really tired enough to sleep, and I dunno why. Well, I guess I do, but I only slept so late because I had heartburn.

I'm pretty excited for this summer and fall. I get to meet 2 friends from the net. I can't wait <3 because I dunno. I love meeting people I chat with online face to face. Granted, the one person I'd love to meet face to face is my boyfriend, but it's really all up to him when that happens. It weighs me down a lot though, not knowing him on a more personal level, though I love him so much so I trust him. I know a lot of people who think I'm stupid for that, but I dunno. I suppose I just trust the word of people who know him too, some even know him from school lol so who would I be to question that? xD But really, I want to <3 Though I have a fear of rejection when we meet--that for some reason it just won't work, but I try not to think about that.

Plans for this summmerrr/Falllll:

1. Driver's License
2. Job
3. Meet Syan <3
4. Attend a wedding/babyshower/etc of a best friend
5. Meet mah lover maybe LOL I really don't think that will happen this summer, but I can dream <3
6. Go to Youmacon with another friend I get to meet for the first time <3 She's awesome because she's giving me a room if I give her arts <3
7. Get people to commission me ;___; It makes me sad. So many watchers on my galleries, but no one can take the time out of their day to suggest a price for a commission or tell me why they wouldn't get my art? Sometimes I just feel shunned ;___; (well, okay <3 Syan loved me and gave me a suggestion on price, but no one else ;___; not even the people I thought would comment.)

Those aren't in a particular order. Just there lol. Anyway. I guess I could explain my random title. I've recently gotten a few new obsessions/fandoms.

1. FMA
2.Inu-Yasha
3. Ranma 1/2
4. ... I really should just say "anything Rumiko Takahashi"
5. Ninja Warrior
6. JAVEY <3 (Davey and Jade yaoiness of AFI <3 Blame it on Syannn)
7. Miyavi

And I guess that's really it. I'm currently out of things to talk about. I'm bored, lonely and depressed. I should sleep since I have plans for tonight. And soon the sun will be right in my room and I won't be able to sleep xD so yesh. No good.

G'night. Maybe I'll post something worth reading later. <3

Luv

Tetsu <3