Little Update :3

My life is kinda calming down now. My sister is back and safe and getting the help she needs. She's also been diagnosed with Post Partum, so she's on medication. She's been told that if she does any drugs and/or runs away or anything else she used to be doing, she will go right to Juvie or Jail depending on the act. But the good thing is she's back, though she's going through withdrawals, so she's shaking really bad.

I've gone back to being the advice person again <3>.> Though I fear I almost made it worse at a few points! I'm not a very good advice giver xD You really shouldn't come to me! Though d0n't hesitate rambling to me about your life! I love knowing what's going on with my friends ;_; I always feel out of the loop when people dun talk to me!

But yah I have a new idea for a banner and maybe layout for this place. We'll see <3

Oh. I get my compy back soon. It still doesn't work, but I want it back because he's not finishing it lol. He can't because he didn't have the S/O but oh well. I'll see if the guys at mom's work can.

I dunno what else to talk about. Listening to AFI again xD Darn you Syan for getting me into them. I kinda wish I could go to their concert at the end of Sept, but I doubt it ;_; because I'm broke and I can't seem to get a job. *feeling a bit screwed right now*

My Sister The 'Criminal'!

LOL So OMGWTF <3 My sister was found by her real mom downtown and then the police got involved somehow and she finally got asked if she wanted to go home to her dad or go to the lock-up--guess where she went?? JUVIE LOL. Wtf I don't understand xD I mean, yeah. Her dad is an ass, but I think that he'd be WAY better than juvie. She's there until 'futher notice' and her dad might be putting her in rehab for alcohol and crap. She's just an idiot. I hope she learns her lesson there though. I really do.

She thinks it so cool but you know, it's not surprising with the people she considered good friends. One of them was under house arrest for giving a hand-job to a TWELVE YEAR OLD BOY. xP and the boyfriend was messin' around with his LITTLE SISTER. FTW?! I mean, really. Oh well.

I'm gonna go to bed. I wish drama would stop happening xD So I could sleep at night and play in the day. Instead I stress all day and play all night and I forget how to sleep! Yay insomnia! xP; Blah. Sleepless night. I'm goin to go to bed. Even tho it's 7 am xD lol oh well. Can't be helped, at least I had a fun sleepless night <3

Tetsu Could Use A Hug xP

6'45 am, the phone rings. You know, I don't think a lot about stuff like that but this time it wasn't good (usually isn't but now is a bit worse) and it turns out my youngest sister Emily (the cutter) has run away again. She left last night while everyone was asleep.

For a while, she'd been sneaking a friend in at night and hanging out with her. Her dad caught her every time and finally went to tell the girl's mother. Now, Emi doesn't choose the best friends in the world. The girl decided that since she was in trouble she would spill everything about Emily: The drugs, sex... EVERYTHING. And what's more, Emily had her little sister over staying with her cuz her mom is in a women's shelter at the moment hiding from some guy, and Emi LET HER SISTER DO POT. I mean seriously. Her sister is ELEVEN YEARS OLD. I just don't understand. At All.

Oh well, I'm tired of stress. I'm just gonna go to class and try to relax on my drive. I should be okay x3; Bai bai for now.

Tetsu

Meme! xD *BORED*

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Tetsu
2. Mika
3. Mikaeden

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Tetsumiro
2. jpaneezLemnaid
3. Mika-Chan

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Artz!
2. Feet xD *dun ask*
3. Pale Skin

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My weight xP
2. ME =p
3. Untamed, furlike "Black" hair xD; (not to be offensive--I've just been called black cuz of mah hair xD)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Irish/Scottish
2. Canadian
3. Cherokee

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU (or mostly creep you out):
1. Balloons
2. The decomposing process of a human
3. Bein' Lonely

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My laptop xD
2. Copicmarkers, pencils and paper!
3. FRIENDS <3 style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. MManson shirt
2. Glow in the dark star sweater
3. Blue jeans xD

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1. Miyavi
2. The Used
3. MCR

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Build God and Then We'll Talk - Panic At The Disco
2. This Ain't A Scene - FOB
3. Smother Me - The Used

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Lose weight
2. Get lots of money for November's trip xP
3. See friends in other states.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Trust
2. Affection
3. Honesty

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes - love unique eyes <3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">
3. Personality - kind and affectionate but not overly so. Well balanced and controlled.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Lose weight xD;
2. Go to bed early
3. Dance x3

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing
2. Roleplaying
3. Yaoi xD

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. English in Japan or Germany
2. Manga-ka/illustrator
3. Graphic Designer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan
2. Germany
3. Anywhere mah friends live x3 (Finland, Argentina, other statesssss)

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Fiorae
2. Fraklyn
3. Angel

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Go around the world
2. Get a comic done
3. Finish my book

Moving On In Life

So, it's been rough here lately. The tension at home was high for a while because my sisters don't do too well in the same room for too long. They were constantly fighting over the computer. I even got upset enough (because I was feeling so ill) that I took the initiative of crawling out of bed and screaming at them. I hate yelling. I rarely do it, but I just couldn't take it anymore. I was shaking so much but the fact they shut up with my yelling made me feel so much better. I had needed to scream for a long time.

I feel bad sometimes, but my youngest sister is hard to live with. I love her, but she's just so different from me that well, sometimes my patience with her runs thin. She's just plain rude, and I know it's from living with her father and it's not like her friends are the best examples either. Then again, I think she could have better friends as well, but that's my opinion, and I won't interfere with how she wants to live. They figured out she cuts finally, so I hope she gets better. She thinks she's so invincible, but she really isn't.

Anyway, I started driver's ed. With my sister and friend, and we all get to drive together in the class. I'm terrified xD I can't wait to know how to drive tho. I'm tired of bugging my mother. I know she hates it when I ask too.

You know, I hate how adults think that teens are just stupid. Really. No particular reason, just from watching how older members of society treat people my age and a bit younger. Even older. I mean, damn. I'm not stupid, I DO pay attention to the world around me and how it works. Really. =p

I have an interview tomorrow at 1'30 with Kohl's. And if I don't get a job there, I hope to work at Payless or Shopko. I need to get my resume done and try for Oki Doki again. I haven't been to the mall in a while. I should go. I need to get something anyway lol!

Monday I go to silverwood <3 I can't wait. I kinda hope it's overcast though. I don't want to worry about the sun... It sucks being so selfconscious about myself. I know that I could get hurt if I'm out too long, or very ill, and I don't want that to happen, but I don't want to be a burden on my friends either xD Because that would suck even more. Uh, well, last night I had a fight with my ex. The final one. I'm glad it's over now. I know I was a insensitive bastard and she had every right to dump me, but the way it happened was just... bleh. She was so irrational when she got mad. She hid so much from me. I never really knew her, and right now, I regret those three years. I would not have fought with her again.. but at the same time she was planning to hang out with me, she was writing a journal about how it was a good thing she was starting to hate me... It was like taking a knife and stabbing me in the back, then twisting it. Maybe it's karma, but at least I had always kept our problems private... I didn't put it up so anyone in the world with internet access could access it. I don't know, I'm done with it. There's more important things for me to worry about then how much of a bitch she's been about this entire ordeal. I'm sure I deserved it... but ugh. She makes me want to cut.

At the moment, I think Owl and I are also falling apart... It hurts right now. He's so distant and it worries me, but he insists nothing is wrong. I'm sure it's just hard for him--he works so long and stays online so late. His phone is slow so IMing me is a tiring process, and it's not always guaranteed that our messages actually sent. I'm hoping it doesn't fall apart, but I know that if it does, there's someone who wants me. Unfortunately, I think that if it does... I'm not going to jump right into another long-term relationship. I think I need a break from it all. I just need to remember what it's like to be single, I haven't been since I was in 8th grade. I just want to be free to go on dates for once. Meet new people. Live. I really just want to live.

I'm going to try and travel a little before I start school. If anything, I'll make it to see Syan and go to Youma con. In December, I'm planning on moving in with my friend Alex. He's awesome, so I can't wait. After he moves in, I'm going to start doing something I've wanted to do for a long time. So much. Maybe sooner if I talk with my mother.. I don't know. I'm so very afraid, and right now, she has so much more to worry about, I don't want to add my name to the list. I really don't, but I think she deserves to know.

Just a bit ago I got done with the longest form I've EVER filled out. For Shopko. It took me like.. an hour xD My hand is dead from clicking so much. I think I might try best buy as well. I don't know. I'm trying for places that are a walkable distance, that way I don't have to worry about being late if I miss my bus xP

I suppose I should sleep now. Huh, whoops, italics. xD Oh well <3

Good night ^___^