Why is it that it's easier for my stoner, runaway minor sister to get a job than it is for me? ;__; I'm legal, never done a drug in my life, never ran away or done SHIT and I'm stuck without a job still. I've searched EVERYWHERE, and all she did was get a call from the lady who helped her get her GED and she got a job (mind you, she got the call while she was like, wasted. She couldn't pass a drug test for the life of her xP she was a runaway when she got the job--it's the only reason she came home).
Agh, I'm so stressed I'm getting sick. If one sister isn't causing trouble, it's the other. Or it's both at the same time. I can't take it anymore. I'm at the point where i just cry randomly. My sleeping patterns are so messed up, I'm sleeping in shifts. I eat maybe once a day and I play Guitar Hero to blow steam. Most of my friends here in town have moved away or they've gotten lives of their own (family, work, moved on, forgot about me). And even then, my so called best friend (who moved for good reason, I don't blame her) hardly talks to me again. Comes here the day she's moving, says goodbye and then our conversation usually goes something like this:
Me: Heya~ <3
Her: Hihi
Me: How're ya?
Her: eh
Me: sad, kinda the same.
(silence)
Me: What'cha up to?
Her: Not a lot.
(more silence and maybe idle chatter for a moment about something I bring up if I'm doing something, but other than that, nada.)
I dunno. I'm frustrated. I have TWO friends from high school that didn't turn around and stab me in the back. Not a single person I graduated with talks to me anymore, nor would they probably talk to me. People are so fake now days. It makes me cry so much--I feel like I've been toyed with for 4 years by them all. Ugh fuck. Whatever. It's over now. I just wish I didn't have to live here. I want to live somewhere I'll be HAPPY. I wanna be with the people who actually give a shit. And I'd drag the two I have left here with me.
Ugh. I'm gonna go. I dunno what more to say. I'm unhappy. Sorry if any 'emo' art comes up. I usually express it visually rather than physically. Though, I have something to look forward to! In one month I go to YoumaCon! So that'll be fun. I have enough for the ticket and once I make sure I'm heading for the right airport and how long they want me to stay there, I'm gonna make it all happen. I'm pretty stoked about that... maybe a getaway with new people will be good for me...
If you're going to YoumaCon, lemme know <3 I'll try to find you. I'll be dressing as Reno from FF7. I'll never do him justice xD; but hey, it'll be fun nonetheless.
<3 Bai bai.. it's 4'30 am.. I'm not tired yet but I'm getting a headache. I might linger a bit longer, I dunno.
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